My twins grew up - am I sad?

Returning from the final destination of our 18th birthday celebrations I quietly sit and wonder what I should be feeling.  

As I Mum, I've worked so hard to raise the twins to be amazing people - and they are.  Doing this as a single mum has been a total joy.  There's nothing negative to say about it at all.  Without having my children, I definitely would not be the person I am today.
As they receive my love, freely I give more.  Easily. Willingly.   So, you might say, I'm very proud.  

Spending time together is amazing. Always we have created adventures and seen places with gasps of Wow in the air.  Most travel is accompanied by a little stress through security, passport control and long queues. This is the bit I favour the least.  After getting though the other side, coming home to a little housework which really can't straighten out the neglect that has taken away the warmth of my Home while I worked way too hard these past 4 years or so, I notice a change.

My daughters boyfriend has surprised her with a return trip similar to the one we have just returned from.  My son off to his girlfriends instantly.  They have plans to travel now too.  None of this I mind.  On the contrary.  It's a wonderful experience for them and I'm so pleased they have found their own wanderlust and independence.  A job well done.  Well done me.

My fluffy dog, in need of a haircut, makes a fuss of me and I aim to sit on the floor sorting through the suitcases.  Wondering.  What should I feel right about now?  Proud of course. Excited for them.  
An air of excitement for myself perhaps. For I can see adventure coming my way too.  When my time caring for mum is done I plan long haul trips with my laptop 'working' with the wanderlust in mind. It'll be great. Of course my twins will always need me.
Perhaps, no not perhaps, this IS my time.  Time to enjoy the life I should have had in my 20s but knew nothing except for work.  Time to make even more amazing new friends, to spend more time with the older friends who have stuck around so long while this Tazmanian devil does her thing.
Opening up to brand new experiences and doing my best to let happiness flow with ease.  

Aiming not to feel even a little bit heartbroken, yet knowing this is the way it will be.  Reflecting and changing the way I look at things.  Keeping that eye on the prize of Joy. As many days as is possible.

Just as the lyrics of a song which echoed in my ears this weekend in Paris, I hope I can be a part of their world.  Our unbreakable bond is truly magical.  With the best will in the world right now, A little piece of my heart is broken.  While I also just love that I have seen them bloom and grow.  

Time for me now?

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Photo shoot in London

GCSE time in our house.  This means many things!

"Mum I need to get this.  Mum can we go there."

Recently, to my delight, Nathan told me he needed photos in London.

St pancras

I love London.  I love Photography.  We took the tripod,  both DSLR cameras and set off on the train for the short journey into London.

Getting arty with sharp lines!

Eros, Picadilly Square

Man it was so so cold.  We had to stop and shoot, then walk fast to get the blood pumping to warm us up.  Stand and shoot again.  Yet it was fun.  I had to remember this was Nathans project and I must let him see the things and how to adjust the camera to get that shot.

Picadilly Circus

The Mall, leading to Buckingham Palace

While he was busy setting up the camera angles, settings and focus, I would take a similar shot just on my iPhone.  These I share with you here.  

Memorial

Typical Usher photograph

Buckingham Palace statues

If I am lucky enough I may be able to get my hands on those photos he has taken and share them with you here.  Just to show that the image in front of you is one thing, using the technology to make it even more beautiful is another.

I love the fact that we are all now budding photographers these days.  Prior to having our phones as cameras, pictures were becoming a thing of the past.

Do you love surfing and nosing everyones photos?

I sure do!

The sun catching the London Eye and Big ben

The Queens home at sunset

Typical london. Red phone box and Big ben

As the light began to fade, we saw the start of the Golden Hour.  A time where typically you see photographers setting up the best shots.

The London Eye and River Thames

Creepy or Fun?

My son taking his photos

Super proud of my children.  They turn 16 soon.  I simply cannot believe where that time has gone.  We are going to have a lot of fun celebrating their birthday. Lots and lots more photos to come for those ones.  Make sure you hop back to check those out!

Meanwhile sending much love as always

Louise xoxo