Don't stop believing

Hospital radio plays in my ears through the earphones.

An acoustic version of Don't stop believing.  

About what?  That life is good?  That we are all here to experience the joy of life.  Well I know that one and have been preaching to you guys for some years now. Although let's face it, we have our ups and downs, we are human beings.  It's what we do.

As another trolley and its squeaky wheels enters the ward right on time to take the patients blood tests I find myself feeling grateful.  Thankful for these amazing staff who not only have such tremendous patience but for the science of medicine and what it can do.  By medicine of course I mean health and the science that goes with it.  

Hospital radio produces a magazine. Immediately my entrepreneur thoughts see my advertising my nutritional services within there.  Gosh, like I don't have enough to do.  Just then I spot in the magazine that there is a need for radio presenters.  I should do that.  Entertain the patients.  I could help.  Then I remember my dream.  My dream of slowing down a little, enough to respect my health, this body, this vehicle for my spirit.  

The accompanying guitars ring beautifully in my ear.  I feel a love for this music once again. Something that has been slipping away.  Just like my thoughts.  Those positive thoughts seem to be escaping from me.  I know just as you do that the law of attraction needs working on. It's not like we forget, we just slip into the rhythm of life.  Get carried along in the negativity and the processes that often distract us from our meditation, our health kicks and our positive thinking.  

Being at the hospital so much just now, I remember just how far I have come in fixing my health - remembering the permanent underlying issues.  Yet able to ignore them if only we eat right, exercise right, sleep right.  The canteen shows a poor show of options for those with gut issues.  Pie and chips,  soup with wheat base,  sandwiches galore, if you are lucky a jacket potato, large enough to spike your blood sugar into space which of course gives us an insulin issue - then of course there is Mrs Crimbles, the promise of a gluten free coconut macaroon, seen often within the shelves.

My stomach has reminded me.  Take care.  

My eyes watering with allergies, my heart heavy with sadness.  

Thankfully, keeping within the now seems to be amazing for my mental health.  There is no time to think  - no time to be glum.  

Life is still good, still meant to be good.  

I won't stop believing.  Are you with me?

Welcome to May 2015

Goodness gracious it's May!

Seems like just yesterday the party poppers were out and we were saying happy new year!

So this blog post is open, raw and vulnerable.


At times life throws you a curveball.  What does that even mean?
It's used a lot in American Films.  I guess it's when something comes along to challenge you, your mood, things as you know them.

Trusting always in nature, the universe and all I mostly feel that everything is leading us somewhere, taking us somewhere.  Yesterday I struggled to make sense of things.


I had news from the Doctor that I am struggling to absorb some minerals.  Darn you Crohns disease.
"Even though you are in remission, this will be down to the Crohns."

For ages now, my health has been good (for someone with Crohns), just not quite right. Something it's hard to put your finger on.  Revealing to you know that I have been being treated for anxiety.

Me?  Anxiety?  It's just not something I wanted to comprehend. I'm great at relaxing, meditated every day so where the flip did that come from.  Now, it seems there is a physical reason for this.

Aha moment.

Within the body, there are all sorts of systems silently working to keep everything ticking along just as it should.  Funnily enough I am taking a big ol' biology exam on this today.  It's called homeostasis.  Things like: keeping your blood sugar levels as they should be.  You know?  Well, for me, it seems one of those systems is out of kilter.  My blood calcium levels. It's at the point that my body is taking calcium from my bones to attempt to keep the calcium levels as they should be.  This makes me feel so so sad.
Typically, for people with Crohns, we can be deficient in Vitamin D (which helps to absorb calcium) and this is me in both cases.
The symptoms I have been getting are likely to be what has caused the anxiety symptoms as my electrolyte balance is all off.  It causes irregular heartbeat, which is a scary one.

Feeling low and 'bruised'  I am determined to get back on top of this.  I have such a massive reason for needing great health.  That thing called life.  I want to really live it!  So more research is on its way to once again give my body what it needs to function and do it's job, once again silently.

As it's May the 1st you can rest assured that there is big news coming from me in the following few days.  I'm excited to share this new life change with you.  It will be of benefit to us all! Yes that's right, not just me and my health but to you and yours too.  I'm excited to do a big reveal and I'm just awaiting a bit of paperwork and then we are off and running!


Meanwhile, back to that thing called 'living'.  My amazing group of friends who are collectively called the Global Stars are sharing our new intro video.  It's like, well, makes me feel like marshmallow inside.  Go and check it out.  Gives you something to watch each day for 5 minutes while having your coffee!

Much love for health and happiness


Louise xoxo

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