Saturday, 22 September 2018

Post graduate study nerves

Nerves? Me?

I don't do nerves.  But my soul does.

Last night i woke several times. I would have referred to it as excitement.  Yet I quickly realised I was definitely out of my comfort zone.  Not realising I would ever refer to science (especially chemistry) as my comfort zone, but there you are...

They say magic happens outside of the comfort zone.  

Yes, i can believe that to be true.  As while I was swallowing hard with a gulp, I do also think my soul was doing a little jig of joy as my heart swelled with doing what I love. 

Stop overthinking and just write...


Saturday, 1 September 2018

Summer; don't go...

14.5 degrees celsius this morning in the VW.

Heated seats on, wipers taking away the early morning dew.  Harley shuffles in the seat next to me. He is cold.  Yet, still, my flip flops are the shoe of choice! No to boots, not yet.  
I'm either boots or flip flops.  No real in between. 

I love our seasons and how they change.  Yet I'm reluctant to move on from summer. 

This summer has been incredible. 

Why though?  It's been full of twists and turns in the health department but there is something about the way I am feeling which makes me grateful for life just now.
Finally the struggle is over. As I step into the reality of who I am and what I want to be.  

Almost as if I simply have to enjoy the writers life as my career as trying to hold together the 9-5 or the toil of dashing around here and there isn't going to be a possibility to even consider anymore. 
Watching a law of attraction video,  I noticed how the speaker was talking about us 'changing things when...' and yes that's true.  We so often wait until this or until my back is against the wall and I chose gratitude.

Mum is keeping us on our toes as she keeps missing heartbeats.  This is something I have learned to stop worrying about.  But more on that over on the new blog.

My holidays have been incredible and I'm really stepping into my own skin. I never knew what that meant before. But I'm finally (for the first time in my life) comfortable with who I am and where I'm going.  Life feels good.  I'm comfortable with home life. Happy with work life.  The newest diagnosis of AS has allowed me to release the guilt of always being so fatigued as I know the reason why now.  

Travelling to Turkey was more than amazing and I plan to go back with mum in a couple of weeks time.  Prior to that we are in the trees for a wonderful time at Centre Parcs. I love it there! We also are off to a luxury lodge for a couple of nights on the coast.  All the while reviewing, photographing and writing about...what a dream job. 

Loving my online life. 


Friday, 31 August 2018

The next adventure; Gran Canaria

Sea view. 


The day awakens with the hustle of deliveries, trucks and vans. 

Without doubt we are going to have fun. 
My amazing twins doing more than chipping in to help with my braveheart mum. 

Today, we explore. Feel the pool as we swim. 

Get to know the place. 

Get to know each other better than ever. 

I'm excited. Bring on the day! 

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