Wednesday, 15 February 2017


Waiting for physio therapy. The smell of stale cigarettes fills the waiting room. Then I sense the smell of cannabis. Who knows that Patients story. Maybe it's medicinal. 

Either way,  I don't like the smell. 
Moreover, I wonder if I waste my time as I sit with around 12 needles in the muscle that gives me such pain.  Then I remember the dread yesterday as I saw my friend heading for the massive line of steps at uni. I can climb them but it hurts. Today my butt cheeks ache. So I remember yes, goto the physio. Let him do his thing with the acupuncture. 

Test tubes surrounded us in the lab this morning as I found my way around to getting on and experimenting.  Having been the only idiot who answered the head of department when he asked who has read the protocol (with the wrong experiment), I felt ok about the day ahead.  Despite my pain, despite the poorly people at home.  I was there, in class.
Unable to stand for long, I felt the acupuncture may do some good.

Yet it has been weeks now and I feel unconvinced that this is the right thing needed for this muscle wastage.  Perhaps this muscle needs working at the gym.  Perhaps the gut needs working on with Chicken Soup.  Helps absorbance of protein.  What is going on here?  I do not want to be this person who is unable to do the things I want to do.  So once again I suffer the needles, unable to stay awake at the duration.  Unable to feel the benefit until the next day.

Positive steps in the right direction are surely what is going to help me beat this crohns and muscle atrophy?  Let's see...

Much love

Louise xoxo


Tuesday, 14 February 2017

Happy Valentines Day

To all of you, Happy Valentines Day.

Do you believe in love?  I do!  I also believe there are many different types of love.

Whatever your type, belief, celebrating this February or not, I do hope your heart is a happy place you can sometimes go to and feel something lovely.

I have been broken and I have been lucky.  Right now my heart is full and it could burst.


Monday, 13 February 2017

1000 subscribers on Youtube!

Goodness me! I have hit 1000 subscribers on youtube!

Some time ago when I began university, I added to my vision board that I wanted to grow my Youtube channel and here it is! I am thrilled to bits and thank you to every single one of you.  This is fantastic!

Do you know about my dream?  You can keep reading here or you can head over to youtube and see...

In the greatest gratitude

Louise xoxo

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