Monday, 22 February 2021

How to stop feeling so anxious

Have you ever really tried to change things in your life and can’t? All you end up doing is getting yourself frustrated with  it. But you might not realise, is that it’s all in your programming. And there is a way that you can change this programming for the better. Making your life more rich and positive in lots of ways. 

This is not your fault. 

You might not know this up until now, but your subconscious brain is in charge of the show. 95% of the brain is run by subconscious thoughts. So when you try to change things, you are trying to change them with only 5%, which is the conscious brain. Did you know this? If not, then chances are you don’t know how to change things either. In this video, we will go through the process of teaching you how to change things so that you are able to reprogram your old beliefs and mindsets. Making life better for yourself is so much easier than you actually would’ve thought. I wish you lots of luck with this, do let me know how you get on! And if you want me to share my story with you and the things that I’m working on, just leave me a message and I will get back to you.


Thursday, 18 February 2021

A day in the life of a writer - illuminating people to your dreams.

A day in the life of a writer - illuminating people to your dreams.

See how things went a little wrong with this video.... just shows you never to take anything for granted,

On this day, I planned to just share a day in the life vlog, you know, usual morning routine and all that normal stuff. Yet, strange as it is (or maybe not, in my life) I woke up today and decided I need to be way more clear. You guys need to know who I am and what I can offer you.... this was my thinking during my journaling time and I decided that if there was only one thing I could label myself as it wouldn't be:

Travel Vlogger Renovation expert Property developer Influencer but it would simply be Life Writer. Sometimes I like to share works of fiction. But more often than not, I speak about life experiences and the inspiration that comes from living as a human being. Just as this got crystal clear this morning, I edit this video which is exactly what it says - a day in the life of a writer - I'm a writer it seems haha. I do make myself laugh! 

See the video here: and let me know what you think!

PS subscribe to the channel and keep an eye on this website as there is big news and loads of videos coming up which will benefit you in your manifestations.


Wednesday, 10 February 2021

The Ring - a law of attraction story

 The most incredible thing happened the other day which saw me floating with joy.


You know that place your mind goes to just before you sleep and just after you wake, theta state?

“Theta is the intriguing border between the conscious and the subconscious worlds. ... While in a theta state, the mind is capable of deep and profound learning, healing and growth.” Huffington Post.


I was falling asleep and felt an epiphany moment. Twenty minutes before, despite being very comfortable in my cosy bedding, I was unusually awake. My phone was already on aeroplane mode, so I chose to listen to a guided meditation which was already downloaded on my phone. There were parts of it which I found super frightening. The man’s voice was echoing certain words and I could visualise a gargoyle reaching its ugly head out to me. Which posed the question, why isn’t this meditation more relaxing than I was experiencing? Of course, me being me, being an inquisitive mind, lead me to a place of wanting to create more guided meditations, as I have successfully done in the past. Yet, being a creative writer, I also could make some of those very simple bedtime stories.  The feeling that coupled with this was sheer joy -this was the right thing.


Mike Dooley, from The Secret, had just hosted an amazing course which got us participants thinking about our next big manifestation. What did we want? Simple as that. I knew my one big want. It was to achieve even more success with my Youtube channel. And somehow, I felt that creating a new channel with the bedtime stories on them would be the way. It was a knowing. Of course, it will take more work. But this will provide a great service for those who need a little extra guidance to get to sleep or to meditate these days. A few days later, the name of Absolutely Mesmerizing came to me as if by magic. 


That was all before I slept. 


I had vivid dreams. Big ones which didn’t always make sense. I had broken a lucky 8 ball and there were intricate details around that. A little girl, about five years old, with a very soft and tiny hand was holding my left hand as I tried to push another, older girl, in a wheelchair. We walked through a door into a faceless wedding party where a bride and groom were taking their first dance. I could hear the song as clear as day, “All my life, I pray for someone like you…” and as I woke, I knew that bride was me.

The shock which ran through my body was incredible.

Would I have said I was closed to that idea? No. But I hadn’t realised I wasn’t open to the idea at all, once I’d ‘felt’ the dream. 


So, to my shock, I sense he is coming and suddenly my left hand felt empty. It was almost like a craving as if my finger was calling out to have something placed upon it. Total coincidence (there are no such things) my amazing friend was showing us on Instagram the rings she has recently started designing and having made. I had seen these before. One gemstone caught my eye but it was set in gold. I like gold. But for some reason, I had thought, ‘if I was to have that gemstone in a ring, I would like it in silver,’ and magic happened on this day. She was showing that particular ring in silver. Instantly I messaged her, asking for a price. Thinking it would be over my current budget but perhaps I could sort something later on. 

Sally and I had a wonderful conversation around this ring and she said, “Lou, this is made for you. It’s Marine Quartz which means it stimulates your creativity. And its chakra is the heart. You do know, it’s the only one I ordered in silver.”


Stimulates creativity = bedtime stories

Heart chakra = love


Sally was right. The ring was made for me. And this was a sample model, so it was affordable and I asked her to mark it as SOLD.  It’s all on its way and while I’m nervous, I’m so excited. 


Thursday, 4 February 2021

No-one has it perfectly sorted - it's not just you!

You might think that people you admire and look up to have everything sorted out. Well, I can tell you, they don't. We are all human and none of us has that skill or ability. We all have our down moments and I wanted to give you this quick reminder that all of us have confusing times, moments of wonder and simply crazy thoughts.

That's ok. Really. How you react to them will determine if this is okay or not. We know this is a blessed life. We also know it has challenges. Recognising those is perfectly fine too! It doesn't mean we won't have a blip in the brain which fills our eyes with tears.

This video might help make things clearer:


Naturally phenomenologically thinking...?

Studying phenomenology is proving quite a natural thing for me. Aside from the big words I’m having to learn, somebody once told me that I seem to look for the meaning in absolutely everything. Is this something you do? Because I don’t necessarily think it’s always a bad thing, although maybe it can drive you crazy at times.

Therefore I decided that I need to do more of the things where I go somewhere peaceful and don’t think about things all of the time. 

Watching a bird fly past, 
feeling the sand underneath my feet, 
waves lapping, these are all things I just allowed to happen without thinking too much about the meaning behind it.
But sometimes being somebody that’s trying to morph into a lusher life does need an element of thinking about things sometimes. Let me know if you resonate, and do leave comments in the bottom.


Sunday, 31 January 2021

My IVF twins 21st Birthday in lockdown

21 years ago my twins were born. We could have never imagined there would be no parties! So I planned the best I could thanks to amazon! And you can see my preparation video here: We actually ended up having a wonderful day, filled with joy, pride and total love. I am so proud of the people they have become... They are the muse to my upcoming book Happiness In Vitro (see an extract here:) I was only half awake due to the morphine when they got me in a wheelchair to move me from the delivery suite to the ward. A state of confusion and concern, I tried to look behind me to see where my babies were, like a mother to ducklings. But the operation caused too much pain for that level of movement. The midwife assured me they were being wheeled behind me in their cot and soon after, we were all taken to a bed by the window in a ward which smelt like the other new mums had been outside, smoking. The midwives moved quickly, and my drug-induced state lost track of what was going on. But the babies were by the window, on the left of my bed, and so was all of our stuff. Dumped on the visitor's chair in a mess. Bags were in the seat, on the floor, on the back of the chair and the windowsill. The disorganised sight brought tears to my eyes and I knew I needed some help. A small bag of 10p pieces was somewhere in a plastic money bag which I’d saved from my last job when I left six months previously. the pregnancy magazines advised packing your change for making phone calls, back in 1999. The staff brought me the payphone and plugged it into the line next to my bed so I could phone Mum and Dad. My inaudible sounds left a tearful, sobbing message on their answerphone, asking for help. I didn’t know where they were and stopped even thinking about it the instant I hung up the phone. I winced and cradled my stomach as I began trying to move the cot aside so I could reach the big bag with all of our important things in it. I had to organise this chaos, pain or no pain. I zipped open the blue sports bag and noticed an envelope, with my name written on it, on top of our things, in neat handwriting which looked like it was from a girl. I sat quietly and opened it. He had put it there the night before when he came to see the babies. It was from Jen.... Did she have no limits?

Monday, 11 January 2021

How to get people to pay you attention.

 In this video we go through the details of why you must believe in yourself and have the details figured out, otherwise others are going to lose interest in what you are saying.

Imagine trying to cook something and say to someone; I've no idea what the ingredients are or how long this might take and I definitely can't fathom how it might turn out. They would lose interest in what you are saying wouldn't they. So, make it clear. Get to know yourself, your creed, your tribe. Then they will listen and the right people will show up.


Sunday, 10 January 2021

Acceptance softens expectations - Couch to 5k FAIL

My knees began to get painful while running the couch to 5K which you can see in this video:

I decided I might have to start walking but still do the couch to 5k. Can you still do that? How will it work?

In this vlog

you will see we are at Center parcs for a family break away and yet still we did the couch to 5k all together. It's about taking in the beauty of the surroundings and making sure you are appreciating what you can do while embracing the negative emotions of not ending up where you thought you might.
Acceptance softens expectations. Back in the summer, I decided to start the Couch to 5K challenge to get fitter and lower my blood glucose levels. Did I manage it? Did it work for me? A big shout out to my couch to 5k bud and total inspiration, Jools. See her on Instagram here: Find the couch to 5k app here: NHS couch to 5k information: BBC Couch to 5k website with links: Couch to 5k playlist:


Tuesday, 5 January 2021

Doing the couch to 5k and I'm failing!

 Week three of the couch to 5k and am beginning to struggle with knee pain. Horrifically bad and I couldn't help but feel my body was letting me down during my efforts to get fitter.

Seeing to Mum as she was rushed into hospital, I tried to kneel beside her to take her blood pressure and I yelped so badly and lept across the room. What on earth was I going to do?

Back in the summer, I decided to start the Couch to 5K challenge to get fitter and lower my blood glucose levels. Did I manage it? Did it work for me? A big shout out to my couch to 5k bud and total inspiration, Jools. See her on Instagram here:
Week 1 vlog here

Find the couch to 5k app here: NHS couch to 5k information: BBC Couch to 5k website with links: Couch to 5k playlist:

week two and I was feeling shin splints...

Keep watching to see the rest of the weeks vlogs. Did I stop? Did I carry on?

Louise xoxo


Monday, 4 January 2021

January said...


A new week? New year? New working opportunities? Or just labels which fuel anxious pressures?

The tree is on the driveway now, shedding needles. ‘Don’t you get them in your feet,’ Mum would yell when we were children.

Excitement we felt heading into Kings wood farm to choose our tree is history now, seeming long ago. Christmas, something to be excited about at last, was the twinkle in our eyes, our reason to smile. We would wake with those fuzzies and switch on the warm white fairy lights in the darkness of the early morning. We still felt the magic of Christmas, despite 2020.

Now I stand in the starkness of the clean and tidy living room and nod. ‘Hmm, nice and tidy,’ I think as I look around. Yup. Nice and tidy. Fact.

Has it gone; that magic? Or have we closed ourselves to it instead? After all, it is January. That bleak, dark and cold month which carries a thousand pressures to catch up at work, adhere to new shiny rules the boss saw fit to create. January is long.

Of course, we could decide to leave those anxieties on the pillowcase as we begin this working week. We might realise that this is just like any other day, except for the label we have given it. Pressures were there in December; but with fairy lights. Seeming to have the answers to that magic feeling, the decorations and the Christmas warmth enveloped us with its love. Now they are gone. So it’s down to you. And me. It’s up to us to own this day, smash the worries to pieces. We have totally got this in control and we are going to see the magic in January too. Because that is simply who we are.

We are strong. We are achievers. We want the best for ourselves and those around us. Facing January darkness, we need excitement here too.  Warm scarves, flasks in the car, working from home with hot water bottles, lighting candles. Finishing the day with a proud sigh, eating slow cooked meals in front of the fire. Early nights and less rushing around, and of course, memories of the love we felt from those who mattered just last week. If we didn’t feel it, they didn’t matter.

‘Let’s do this.’ January said.

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