The feeling, the emotion, the pictures in my mind still of the carpet I was standing on.
All of this was a game changer.
My life is now unrecognisable from the single mother striving to make ends meet....
Here is how the story goes:
Shaking my head in disbelief I asked,
“So what you just imagine you are that
weight and you are that weight?”
“You’ve not heard of the secret? Where have
you been hiding?” My client asked in a rather rude manner. She and I were both at loggerheads at this
point in time. Yet basically she was
pointing me to the book, The Secret. For the first time in my life (which feels
incredible now) alerting me to the fact that I am in control of my own
destination by the use of my beliefs.
Of course I immediately read the Secret
within the next few days.
Not understanding it, I left the frown on
my face as I began to ponder what this might possibly be about.
As a child, it was always my responsibility
to try and guess if I was loved or not.
No hugs or kisses, no encouragement or telling me how amazing I am. When I cried I was the subject of the
jokes, “She will make a great actress!”
No, actually, I was upset.
I needed love.
Positivity escaped my parents. Constant tales of, ‘we can’t afford this/who
do you think we are Rothschild?/money doesn’t grow on trees’
Glass half empty.
Growing up in total fear of how hard life
was, I found myself turning to determination to actually be ok. Leaving school and leaving behind my dream of
becoming a dietitian as the advisor said,
“There are so few jobs as a dietitian.” So
off I went to train as a catering manager.
Blinking good one I ended up too.
All the while being conscious of how hard I had to work in order to pay
the bills. Working was all I thought
about. For the entire duration of my
20s. Never would I put my feet up,
despite my body screaming at me to do just that. Christmas week I could easily clock up 90
hours. Yet a good manager, an operations
manager, at the age of 27 in control of 700 staff. Exhausted.
Suddenly hearing that life doesn’t need to
be this way was so confusing for me. It
took a long time to reach this amazing place where I am now (that even writing
this and reminding me of the person I used to be in the dark world) is so
bizarre.
Realising there might be something in this;
I tried to understand the law of attraction.
I watched the DVD. That gave me
goosebumps and ‘aha’ moments.
More and more and more I began to watch YouTube
videos of those who I now know and love, Wayne Dyer, Sonia Choquette, Abraham
hicks, Jack Canfield. Over and over I
was amazed at what I began to learn.
Could this actually be a thing?
As a keen researcher, I looked over and over the evidence. Blood cells changing with words and thought –
the microscope wasn’t lying – I could see this video unfolding into what I
might only describe as a miracle.
Much effort went into not being angry with
my parents. How could I not know
this? How could anyone not?
Little by little yet quickly, I began to
find a new belief which was more than life changing. Setting intentions, visualizing, meditating –
which was a game changer for me.
Becoming part of the 100-day
reality challenge (https://www.liloumace.com/notes/The-100-DAY-REALITY-CHALLENGE_b1771352.html),
I wrote my intentions on the group boards.
Seeming like a big ask and wish I had to take a deep breath and use
faith. All the while going against
everything I had been taught to believe as a child.
Wanting to travel, I stated on the 100 day challenge that I
wanted to fly somewhere amazing every 6 weeks.
Feeling those old thoughts of, ‘things like that are not for people like
us’ creeping in, I tried to use the methods I had been learning and begin to
trust the universe.
Within two weeks I had secured a new
contract as a business consultant with enough money written into the contract
that I would definitely be able to afford my travels every six weeks. This contract didn’t mean endless hours of
toil and going into work for long hours.
One day per week.
One long and challenging day but one
day.
It was enough.
I was earning more within that one day than
I used to earn in an entire two weeks in the past job. Loving my new life, I must be honest and
tell you it was exhilarating although a little confusing. Beginning to struggle with my relationship
with my parents for not giving me this chance sooner, I tried hard to be
forgiving. Eventually accepting they are
different to me and that was simply how it was.
Friendship circles changed. This is clear as day for me to now see that
it’s a good thing. Around me now are
people with clear beliefs of the Law of attraction and all it has to offer. I love this!
My language is so different now, my life is
unrecognizable.
One Christmas after discovering the law of
attraction and still not quite believing it, I was enjoying my neighbours
company snugged up on the sofa, “What are you doing tomorrow?” She asked
Making some funny disbelief face I replied,
“Off to look at a car. It’s £20,000!” I
rolled my eyes. The rolling of the eyes
demonstrated I wasn’t quite ‘there yet’ but nevertheless I went and
looked. For the first time stepping into
a car showroom. It was stunning. Just as the Secret showed, I sat in the car,
felt the steering wheel, took photographs and put them as my profile
picture.
For some reason I didn’t buy that car. I bought something more flash. Smaller.
Same price pretty much. That was
7 years ago now. Yet still, a smile
appears across my face as I realise the magic in me going to collect the very
same make and model car today. All
affordable now and very practical for my life of travel and all.
The friend I told that Christmas has had to
be lovingly waved goodbye. As a person
not understanding of my wishes and dreams, things became a little nasty and
without wanting to respond or allow that behavior into my space, I needed to
let go of her from my life. Perhaps this
was manifesting how I felt people might perceive the new ‘achieving’ me. It’s
happened. You see, I do believe the law
of attraction comes with a few struggles which
again demonstrates the power of the mind.
Instant manifestations come in the simple
forms right now, I’m still working on the big stuff to show up instantly. But it comes.
It just takes time.
Where I am at now is difficult to list
without sounding like I’m bragging but for me it’s important
to show how someone just like me can turn life around. I’m happy now. I believe now. I’m enlightened.
More than just money and things, I love
living in the knowledge that our loved ones who have passed are having a great
time in their home. Peace of mind in
knowing everything will be alright is simply priceless. Although I do believe the law of attraction
knowledge comes with some considerable responsibility. My job now is creating blogs and YouTube
videos helping others who were just like me to accept they can change things
yet it’s not always as easy for some when they are changing mindset. Rubbing the genies lamp will only work if you
allow it. My journey has had many blocks
which needed unshifting. Helping others to see those blocks are there but we
need to work around it to create the dream life and to be able to be who we
want to be is a total dream.
More and more travel is planned. My books are gaining popularity as I have dug
deep within to realize the life of hard work and toil isn’t what I dreamed of
as a child. Writing since the early ages
and being ‘that thing’ that I could do all day long is now my job! A researcher in human nutrition has shown me
how the science world has not quite caught up with my beliefs yet but it does
see me on my way to a PhD in creative non-fiction writing as I continue to tell
others their worth through my writing.
My story of health through nutrition is quite amazing as I showed the
doctors I didn’t need medication or surgery for my Crohns disease as they
suggested I did. We are on the way to
being financially free and this year sees a third retreat added to my portfolio
in the beautiful Cornwall.
Life is exciting. I love being so happy. Yet it’s been a journey. It still is a journey.
For those struggling with certain elements
of the law of attraction, I understand.
These things take time and effort.
All in a good way. And good
things do happen, sometimes your belief sees you waiting a little while!
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