Wednesday, 17 May 2017


"I can't be depressed." They say. 
"I've so much to be thankful for. So much to live for. So much to look forward to." 

 Despite this, there is a feeling of flatness. Emptiness.  Strangeness. 
Wandering in a dream like state thinking how 'odd' I feel.  Where did this come from?  I was ok yesterday.

This is exactly what I would describe as my blue days. Those days when despite counting my blessings, I'm still under a cloud.  Never mind looking back over achievements,  the cloud still tells me life is empty.

Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better again.  Maybe I won't. 

A few constants remain.  My love for writing, even though there are days I can't get to the keyboard.  The love is still there.  Getting it 'out and onto'  - you heard that before I know.

The other constant.  Harley.  He fills me up with joy and love.  He needs a bath right now, my nose bathes in his lovely dogggy Harley scent.  Being out with him is my love.  Being huddled under a duvet with him is my medicine.  That and tablets.

Just as I thought I'd cracked it...for no it is once again.

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