"I've so much to be thankful for. So much to live for. So much to look forward to."
Despite this, there is a feeling of flatness. Emptiness. Strangeness.
Wandering in a dream like state thinking how 'odd' I feel. Where did this come from? I was ok yesterday.
This is exactly what I would describe as my blue days. Those days when despite counting my blessings, I'm still under a cloud. Never mind looking back over achievements, the cloud still tells me life is empty.
Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better again. Maybe I won't.
A few constants remain. My love for writing, even though there are days I can't get to the keyboard. The love is still there. Getting it 'out and onto' - you heard that before I know.
The other constant. Harley. He fills me up with joy and love. He needs a bath right now, my nose bathes in his lovely dogggy Harley scent. Being out with him is my love. Being huddled under a duvet with him is my medicine. That and tablets.
Just as I thought I'd cracked it...for no reason...here it is once again.
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