Thursday, 4 June 2020
Why do we block our dreams?
I am so excited to share this epiphany moment with you. I hope it will help you realise what is holding back your own visualisations.
I also share part of my story as to why the 4th June is so significant for me. And why that might stop me in my tracks too.
I mention this video (please please watch) - https://youtu.be/S95-9-VuB0U
And this is one about Quantum physics - https://youtu.be/2RuCfTiCDjs
and here is my one where i was very unwell - https://youtu.be/4VTSFOG_k7g
Sunday, 31 May 2020
I had another baby boy
...in last nights dream.
Which was so crazy! This baby had the usual soft skin when you held him, and the loveliest eyes. When I introduced him to my (actual) son, he held him close and I took an arty photo of the two of them to post on Facebook,
"When my two sons meet for the first time," to a shocked audience! No wonder, so would I be. My son is 20 now and my children are IVF babies, born after 9 years of fertility treatment and several miscarriages.
Why on earth would I have this dream? Well, we are currently fixing our house and I'm struggling with overwhelm. I won't deny there have been big worries about
* my bad back
* money
* the workers
* am I up to this?
* being single
but my son sat at the end of my bed while I mopped my tears and told me it would be okay, they will all help, I will take my vitamins and he will take me on a walk before any of it starts.
Later on yesterday I posted a photo, an old one, on Instagram. I titled it:
"so proud of how far we've come in these last 21 years, just us three. They are now taking good care of me. I'm super lucky with my little family"
Which was so crazy! This baby had the usual soft skin when you held him, and the loveliest eyes. When I introduced him to my (actual) son, he held him close and I took an arty photo of the two of them to post on Facebook,
"When my two sons meet for the first time," to a shocked audience! No wonder, so would I be. My son is 20 now and my children are IVF babies, born after 9 years of fertility treatment and several miscarriages.
Why on earth would I have this dream? Well, we are currently fixing our house and I'm struggling with overwhelm. I won't deny there have been big worries about
* my bad back
* money
* the workers
* am I up to this?
* being single
but my son sat at the end of my bed while I mopped my tears and told me it would be okay, they will all help, I will take my vitamins and he will take me on a walk before any of it starts.
Later on yesterday I posted a photo, an old one, on Instagram. I titled it:
"so proud of how far we've come in these last 21 years, just us three. They are now taking good care of me. I'm super lucky with my little family"

It's a surreal feeling to think that now I'm beginning to need some looking after too. I'm glad to have given my time to them and create these lovely humans. I have some awesome people in my life but these two youngsters are there for me every day, in every way and I love them dearly for all that they given while expecting nothing in return.
There will be no more babies, that's for sure but why try again when I got it right the first time.
That little baby boy in the dream was such a sweetheart though, is it mad to say I miss him?
Labels:
babies,
dreams,
infertility,
ivf,
short story,
single mother,
single parent
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